Monday, October 24, 2016

Tuesday, October 11, 2016


Ok, if you see this, great. This is a message to someone in particular. You know who you are... You do not have to read this, but if you know it's for you (and you will), then please read it. I don't know if I can say this in any other way.

I haven't talked to you in forever. You may not know this, but it's pretty much tearing me apart. I'm so afraid to message you because I know you won't forgive me. Besides, you have your big sister. You don't need me anymore. I'm getting trapped inside this crazy dream and I don't want you going down with me. You've already got enough problems on your own. If you are worried, don't be.

I haven't been on SoM in forever. Same with Kik. I'm afraid to. I haven't been talking to anyone online, and you know that's a pretty big part of my life. So it's not just you I haven't been talking to, but it's you I've been thinking of the most.

I know that you care for your big sister more, don't deny it. I'm actually glad for it because at least you have the better one with you. I never really was able to do anything but a temporary relief, huh?

You'll be fine. You are strong, and you'll make it without me. You've got everyone else you care for. You are a strong light, and people are just naturally attracted to you. I know you are probably going to consider this your fault. Trust me, it isn't. I've been battling this thing inside me even before we met.

This isn't a permanent goodbye. At least, I don't think so. Unless you want it to be. I'm just saying my current situation. I'm just saying why I haven't been on and why I might not be on for a bit.

To everyone else who sees this and have cared to read through it, do not mind this. This is to a specific person who know's what I'm talking about, so don't you worry about little ole me.